Canto Serioso

So yeah I moved my blog to this address (from www.americangingerinthebigsmoke.blogspot.com ) Very exciting huh? HA. It was just too long before.

So hmm its been awhile and life has been story worthy as usual, but I rarely think my everyday life would be interesting to anyone, well but me and my boyfriend, he's required by law to be interested or at least by sexual contract... SO here's the quickie blow by blow (teheh) version. I went home for Christmas and had a wonderful time with the family and the boyfriend and the best friend who came to visit too. I was completely and utterly surrounded by people who love me. So, it was hard to come back to London with the rain and the regular work schedule. I find myself feeling wholey antisocial. But, it rather coincides with this new eagerness to not suck in my studies, which have amazingly taken off very well.

I've been given principal (1st) seating in everything I've been assigned to this term. Even a concert with Sir Colin Davis conducting! gee wiz! So really life is going well. It's waay past time my horn playing starting falling into place. I notice about myself and others that we do things completely in our own time. Now, some people NEVER get it done and I was very worried I was one of those. But come to think I've had that worry my whole life. About developing, about socializing even about reading. When in second grade I remained banished to those horrible books with cardboard pages still, while the rest of the class leaped forward with books that had Chapters! I was so horribly embarrassed I didn't even read the cardboard books because I didn't want my peers to see me. It seems I do the same thing with practice. I'm so embarrassed about my level of playing and feeling it should be higher compared to my peers that I don't practice, in fear they'll hear me and hear how bad I am. But not practicing doesn't exactly make me any better! Well, I just turned a corner and took that invisible next step and everyone seems to be impressed with my playing just now. Interesting. I don't remember doing anything different. But I guess I stood back and watched and absorbed long enough so now I can walk out and not make as many mistakes as those I saw before me. I just do things at my own pace and I need to accept that. It's nice not being at the back of the pack anymore and I hope it follows my reading curve which saw me at the back of class and then one of the most accomplished and voracious readers of my class all in one year. Fingers crossed.

Canto Serioso is a piece composed in 1913 by Danish composer, Carl Nielson for horn and piano. "The canto is a principal form of division in a long poem, especially the epic. The word comes from the Latin cantus, meaning "song"." http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Canto