Not Dealing

I have a lot of shit going on right now, possibly a little more than I can handle and I am frustrated with people who on one hand say, oh of course that's so hard for you, and then in the next sentence tell me how much I am sucking at life. I don't deserve all of the slack in the world, but geez maybe a fucking sliver of it would be nice! At the same time, I acknowledge they are right. I am being a very selfish person right now but to be honest I think it's what is holding me together. Why is guilt such a wonderful gift everyone is always so eager to bestow. I apologize to all of you people who are upset with me right now. I know I am not being a very good friend and it sounds pathetic but please please please give me a few days to sort myself out before pronouncing judgments on me about my worthlessness and selfishness.